Just the beginning of my beautiful journey...

I've been pondering a lot of things about life lately. I'm definitely transitioning into a new chapter of my life with my eldest child turning 16. I know this didn't happen overnight, but sometimes it feels like it! Time just flits right by, as I sit here watching. I start looking back in time, where this journey began. Thinking back to the night I went to the hospital, feeling my first twitch of a contraction really. I had it all so well planned. That 6 weeks of La Maze was sure to pay off! I'd find my focal point and ignore the pain, mind over matter. Ha! The plan changed quickly as the book was tossed out the window and I was grasping for what felt like survival at that point. 21 1/2 painstaking hours later, I met her. She was amazing from the first moment that she entered our world and took her first breath. Upon her exhale she put energy back into the room, back into me. All of the pain, all of the waiting, all of life prior to this moment became somewhat irrelevant. She brought with her a new way of doing things. As I quickly learned while in labor, there wasn't a plan book. No rule book. No one way of doing things. I found my way, through her. I watched her for hours. Just looking at her in all amazement and wonder. Wondering mostly what will she do next? What will I do? My life revolved around this miraculous little being. When will she poop, when will she eat? Surely she didn't do these things when I deemed appropriate. She marched to the beat of her own drum and I followed. It's funny to think back about all these little things from her first moments, she was already HER. Not much has changed. Her light shines brightly. I marvel at her inner brightness that just beams from her. Speechlessly, she makes her impression. She's already had quite the impact. As I attempt to look forward into the future, I'm filled with such mixed emotions. Anxiety, confidence, worry, hope. It is bittersweet, for sure, watching your children grow. Halie Morgan, my first born, my first everything, the beginning of my life's journey. What a wonderful place to start at. This has been the best experience ever. Such a cliche' way to put such a marvelous, miraculous, monumental experience. The BEST! That simply sums it up. The rest is still unwritten...